savoir-faire

one foot closer, every step faster, catastrophe avoided, we’re in the same place
reaching surface, eyes to the wall, watch when we fall, don’t look away see it all

i sit embraced, by this disgrace, you move in again, silence i regret

its been clichéd nothings changed, i’m just the same as before
i’ve looked no further

we’ve been building, relentless and forgiving, destroying and making, while there was suffering
they scream and they cry, we’ve only time to say goodbye, it was over before we left
forgive, forget, don’t pretend

lasting cliché, we’ve not changed, bet you wanted nothing, all they need is your charity
messed around enough to know, that your directions good to go
you are just as responsible, don’t turn your eyes, need to see this for yourself, need to save them from this same..

still so fucking pissed that i havent finished my portraiture one yet, i’m like, literally just stuck, no idea where to go or what to do but still

just looked at m.c escher for my reflections project, which is my exam one
and decided to make up a drawing of possibly an alcoholic, holding a glass of wine, from normal view they’ll look a bit of a mess, smoking and what not, but in the reflection in the glass/bottle i’m gonna make them look good and what they could be

i’m jut pleased i have ideas, i know it wont turn out how i want it to cause i suck

katiejanefarrow:

clareelouise:

katiejanefarrow:

is that the film i think it is? *sniff*

it is clare <3

oh godddd, i need to watch it again Katie! that would so suit my mood right now, i might have to find it somewhere :3

katiejanefarrow:

is that the film i think it is? *sniff*

but im not, im myself,
and i really need some cash cause chasing dreams dont pay you jack
so put the kettle on, leave the tea bag in because i like it strong
my mouth is burned to bits and im practically drowning in PG tips

i think its time to sort it out, to get a job and move out
but im just a kid! so? deal with it
its the credit crunch, thats my excuse for being unemployed for months

- have to agree with Aaron, i do like the new Lower Than Atlantis lyrics and they’re kinda growing on me a little ahah

And I’m not afraid to admit it haha, I’ve drunk two litres of it since yesterday ahah need to get more today!
I was so cosy when I woke up this morning, can’t believe I got up tbh, although I am sat back on my bed, hoody, listenin to acoustic an watching the rain
I love moments like this though, just feeling really ah I dunno ahah relaxed I guess, its good :)
Sadly I have to get up and start doing some more art work and revision, but for the next half hour I’m just gonna relaaax

i don’t know how it’s even possible, i think i just kinda jumped face first really
i was so curled up thursday and friday i just wanted to do something today
but may have over done it
ah well, it was a good laugh really
and i guess im feeling back to my old self again, not sure if everyone else would agree thats good to be honest, not even sure if i think its a good thing to be honest
but better than feeling ridiculously miserable, and too scared to even leave the house

i guess all there is from here is just the way things are, i know in my mind nothing major is going to change, and i guess i don’t really want anything major to change now
everyone else seems really happy and okay, and things look like they’re going well
so as long as i can just stick by the right people then i’ll be alright i guess

ahh well this turned out to be a bit of a long boring post but once again its my blog so suck it up

i think bed, baggy shirt, vimto, something decent to listen to and someone to bug with texts is called for right now
i’d go for a hug too but i’ll settle with my pillows ahah

its slowly getting heavier, but its good

nothing like what i used to listen to thankfully, there’ll never be a time for that sorta stuff again i don’t reckon

but im enjoying it, having the freedom to listen to absolutely anything i want to
from siiick dubstep to post hardcore and then the most acoustic of acoustic

its great
today made me feel better, so much better, i remember who i was and who loves me and who i love
just like to say i’m really happy for Blair and Katie, those two people mean the world to me and I couldn’t think of better people for each other, yeahhhh they’ll be shocked im being nice in a post but i really do love you guys!

might see if mum will let me out later or if she still wants me to play the little sick girl in bed, don’t fancy that anymore
i’ve realised im still young, im single, i have some amazing mates, i have a lot of shit in my life but thats all part of it and makes the good things EVEN BETTER!

as i fall and you turn away, you walk down corridors miles away from my heart
as i breathe, as i surrender, i hear the sound of whispering
replace these veins, with these stomach aches and butterflies that long to tear away
screaming, i’ll tear out, i’ll tear out, i’ll tear out your heart
with the lights out, i hope you never leave my side
i promise to leave my weapons left by the bedside
as you stand pressed up on the wall, they march in outfit with lullabies that long to hurt us all
now im your escape route, but i could be so much more
this time i wont bleed, if your forsaking me, i’ll tear out your heart
you were there and i was with you, longing for you
you broke the locks, i grabbed on to you, lost in these rooms,
what did i see?

Dnksodpwjsksjshwofkebwisosnwbsgf

Yeah

Was alright I guess, manic cleaning session in my room, more sleep and god knows how much more tablets an stuff, can’t stand feeling ill
New phones good, still messing about on it now
Rang Aaron, now watching shitty tele with mum an might do some drawing
:)