I like how I made a moany sort of post this morning, just spent an hour and half doing all my paper work and shit for potentially an office training job to start on Wednesday. 75% chance I’m in.
that a pretty high percentage of us are stuck in what we know so much now.
I still haven’t found a new job, I do not regret quitting my job at all. I’ve had time to enjoy life, learn more about myself and do/see things I know I wouldn’t have while I was working where I was.
But, I’ve spent yet another morning searching every job website or company website I can think of right now looking for jobs and I ended up looking for jobs in Ireland and Devon. Why? Because I started thinking fuck it, why do I have to tie myself to a job in only Braintree/Witham/Colch or Chelmsford. What’s stopping me just packing up for half a year and going somewhere else in the country and getting a little job and just seeing if I can get by. Then reality kicked in and my brain is just like, where would I live, who would I know, how would I get around, what would I eat, what if I can’t cope. All these stupid little things that I know so many people think in their heads so they just tie themselves to something ‘safe and secure’. Why does life have to be like that now? I know a few people that are constantly off around different places, even different countries just trying out new things. Living poor with nothing but still experiencing things I could probably only dream of. People my age that have done so much amazing stuff it’s unreal, and I wish so hard that myself, and other people could be more brave, more adventurous and just give it a go. At the end of the day why isn’t just having yourself and something you want to try enough?
It’s such a stupid like snob arsey post I guess, but I wish society hadn’t locked us all into this you have to work to have money to have a stable life and blah blah blah.
Why can’t I just go fuck it, I’m going to do something incredible right now because I can.
But yeah, better get back to looking for some mundane job or something eh.
Erm.. little bit creepaaaay. S’alright now thanks, I’m actually getting a bit of colour to me :3