May 2012
I like how I made a moany sort of post this morning, just spent an hour and half doing all my paper work and shit for potentially an office training job to start on Wednesday. 75% chance I’m in.
It's so frustrating,
that a pretty high percentage of us are stuck in what we know so much now.
I still haven’t found a new job, I do not regret quitting my job at all. I’ve had time to enjoy life, learn more about myself and do/see things I know I wouldn’t have while I was working where I was.
But, I’ve spent yet another morning searching every job website or company website I can think of right now looking for jobs and I ended up looking for jobs in Ireland and Devon. Why? Because I started thinking fuck it, why do I have to tie myself to a job in only Braintree/Witham/Colch or Chelmsford. What’s stopping me just packing up for half a year and going somewhere else in the country and getting a little job and just seeing if I can get by. Then reality kicked in and my brain is just like, where would I live, who would I know, how would I get around, what would I eat, what if I can’t cope. All these stupid little things that I know so many people think in their heads so they just tie themselves to something ‘safe and secure’. Why does life have to be like that now? I know a few people that are constantly off around different places, even different countries just trying out new things. Living poor with nothing but still experiencing things I could probably only dream of. People my age that have done so much amazing stuff it’s unreal, and I wish so hard that myself, and other people could be more brave, more adventurous and just give it a go. At the end of the day why isn’t just having yourself and something you want to try enough?
It’s such a stupid like snob arsey post I guess, but I wish society hadn’t locked us all into this you have to work to have money to have a stable life and blah blah blah.
Why can’t I just go fuck it, I’m going to do something incredible right now because I can.
But yeah, better get back to looking for some mundane job or something eh.
Come away little lass, come away to the water.
How's your sunburn?
Erm.. little bit creepaaaay. S’alright now thanks, I’m actually getting a bit of colour to me :3
